Mom, why you did this to me?

Shri. Shrikant Parija is the original writer of this article. He is from Orissa. Original article was published in Oriya language. This article was written in the form of letter.
Once Shri. Shrikant saw an unborn baby getting killed through abortion. For few days he could not sleep. He was restless. He could not digest the incident. He was not able to forget that incident which he saw. Finally he decided to write a letter to mother who killed an unborn baby & expressed his thoughts as if unborn daughter talking to her mother.
Only reason for the abortion was that baby was girl.

Mom, why You did this to me?

· Why? Don’t You remember me?
· Why You did?
· I was desperate to see You & Your face. It was a long period. Why You killed me?
· Do You know i only knew You & no one else?
· I was not touched by anyone,Whatever i experienced in those 4 months, it is only because of You.
· You remember? When my brother used to cry? You always tell him. Don’t cry. Now You are going to get a gift of another cute brother. You are going to play with him.
· At that time, i used to laugh (In Garbhashay) & i used to say "Mom, he is going to get a gift of small sister and not brother.
· You always took rest while taking care of him. But i was always restless.
· I always wanted to come out & play with you & my brother, as i was not able to control my emotions? i always played with my legs. On that act, You always laughed with pleasure & peace. i always wanted to see smile on your face.
· Whenever my brother used to get up.. early in morning or late in the night? He used to push Your tummy. It used to heart me inside but at the same time there was a pleasure

. Do You know why? Playing with brother? is a different pleasure especially for brother-sister.
Whenever brother was not well? You always use to pray Durga Ma & used to say "Durga Ma, please take care of my kids & give them peace of mind & good health"

· I used to cry. i thought how wonderful person You are. You love Your kids so much.
· Because of You only i realised how important it is to become mother. i also realised & understood that You also have elderly mother & her name is Durga Ma. i also understood that it was Durga Ma, who was giving all the will power, peace & good health, etc.
· Through out 4 months, i was just thinking about You & wondering how wonderful you are

. I always had only one mission and that was to see You in person. Nothing else.
· I also remember once You telling the brother "Raja, i suffered pains of 9 months. When You were born? Do well for Yourself, for Your family & help Your mother in elderly days.
· When i heard this? i started crying inside. Not because You were loving him or pampering him. i started crying because i understood that, i will have to wait for another 5 months to see You.
· And one day, You & "Papa" decided to visit doctor.
· While You were on road, i was suddenly felt a great impact as i was hit. i started crying inside. i was not able to understand what happened with You and in turn i was in pains. Then You said to "Papa". Please drive slowly. My kid will get hurt. When i heard this? i was so happy. as You were taking so much of care of us
· When You visited doctor’s place. Doctor asked You to lay down. At that time i was playing inside. Doctor was examining You at that time. He was also using something on Your tummy. i could not understand what that was. But i could see some light inside Your Garbhashay – uterus.
·I wanted to do some act so i started roaming inside from top to bottom in uterus

. On that, doctor said, baby is doing lot of activities and in turn i am not able to understand what the baby is all about.
· After 1 hour or so? Doctor said "Baby is female". Suddenly there was deep silence. And then that "Papa" said to doctor. Please perform abortion. Doctor said "Come tomorrow early in the morning without eating anything". But i was laughing inside.
· Next day morning, You got up early in the morning & i heard You were saying to Your elderly mom "Hey Durga Ma. Please take care of me and let me come back home safely. i felt, You were not well. i had tears in my eyes. i also said "Hey Durga Ma, please take care of my mother & keep her fit."
· Post to that……….You knows what happened?

Mom! Please answer ..
· Mom! why you did this to me? Why You killed me? What crime i did that You gave such a big punishment.
· I wanted to see You. You should have killed me after seeing You.
· Mom! Please give a small place again in your tummy .
· I wanted to see the world. I wanted to go school. I wanted to play my brother. I wanted to say "Happy birth day to my brother". I wanted to run behind him & You too. i wanted to lay down with You the way You used to lay down with my brother.I wanted to sleep next to You along with my brother. I wanted to hear Your soft & humble words in my ear "Sleep my child. I am with You. I will take care of You. Why You are worried. i am with You. Why You are scared".
· Mom! i want to play with You inside just to feel that smile & peace of mind. But You & "Papa" took away my this small Request. Mom! why You killed me? Why You did not fulfilled Your promise to take care of mine?
· Why Mom? Why???????????????????????????????